Rainbow

I'm something beautiful

Caused by something so sad.

I'm on the top of the world

Where everything is clear

And beautiful

And good

And hopeful

And inspiring.

But then I slide

Right back down

With no reason behind it.

Nothing to hold on to.

Nothing to feel normal

For just a little bit longer.

Only one extreme

To the next.

I drag my feet

Back to where I started.

I'll try not to

Fall apart this time.

But if I do,

I'll just do what I always do.

I'll pick out my mask

With bright eyes

And a warm smile

Meticulously positioned.

I'll keep walking

And force my head up

And drag my feet

To the beginning of that rainbow.

I'll clamber my way back up,

Exhausted,

Wondering "What's the point?"

I'm tired.

Unmotivated.

Weak.

Anxious.

But I make it to the top.

I take my mask off,

Toss it down the rainbow,

And rest.

But it's not the end

As I anticipate the next fall.

It's an endless cycle

I have to repeat.

I have no choice.