I'm Not Lazy

I'm not lazy.

I'm tired.

I'm terrified

Of being wrong.

It's irrational,

I know.

I don't know why

I'm so scared

To be wrong.

Is a panic attack

Being lazy?

It's exhausting.

I'm trying to recover. 

I'm not trying

To be lazy.

I don't think

I'm being lazy.

I can't find the answer

And my brain

Refuses to work.

I know you're not

Talking about me,

But me being me,

I can't help

But take the hit

Even when the hit

Isn't meant for me.