"Love"

"Love"
It's just a word
People say
To make another
Feel better.

I don't fall for it
But I fall a lot.
I cry
Silently scream.
It hurts sometimes.
But sometimes
I don't care.

"I don't care"
My throat shrinks.
Now I want to care
But I don't.
I can't.

"I love you"
It rolls off my back.
Some say
It's sad.
I don't feel it
So how can I miss
What I can't feel?

Maybe it is sad.
But then am I broken?

"Broken"
Every night
I stay up to late,
I'm crying.
But sometimes
I don't care.

"Love"
It's like thin air.
Air keeps you alive.
But it's thin.
It's meaningless
For me.
Just jumbled up letters
For a word
Others feel
But I don't.
I don't know if I can.

I don't know.
I don't know a lot.
I do know
Sometimes I feel like
I'm drowning
But no effort
Into swimming.

I don't feel dead.
Not really.
Numb sometimes,
But not all the time.
But I see
"Love"
As jumbled up letters.
It's meaningless
To me.