Trigonometry

It looks like I'm doing alright,
But I've trained myself to display that.
I'm drowning in proofs,
Doing anything
I can
To keep pushing through.

A fresh start sounded great.
Start from the basics
Work your way up
...except for Algebra
And fractions,
Two of the things
I've struggled through.

I get a proof right on my own
Once in a blue moon.
But when I struggle,
I'd keep my hand raised,
Constantly struggling.

I work hard.
Finally gave myself a break
Last week
For the first time
In a lifetime.

Or maybe it was
To take a break
From not understanding
Basic Algebra,
From what was embarrassment
Becoming shame.

Assessment tomorrow
Field trip first.
No break in my day,
A moment for me
To breathe
And just be.

I don't want the next test
To end up
Like the last test.

Proofs are like driving,
Except I feel like
I keep driving into a tree.