Catch a Break

I can't seem to catch a break.

Music and

Friends and

School

Are my only escape

And if I can't do them

Then I'm shoved

Into doubt

And self-hatred.

Inhale Deep

To find peace

But I

Can't breathe

And it's built up

Too much

And I'm breaking.

I've been strong

For so long

This volcano 

Is erupting

Holding back too much

Then overflowing.

Drew a line 

But it wasn't

In the sand

It was

By my hand

But not by

My hand.

The lines

Are fading

I'm begging

For them to stay

Before I do

Something stupid

But I'm an expert

At making excuses.

I like to believe

I'm self-aware

But if I were,

Why didn't I see this

Coming?

(4/1/2021)