Not a Role Model

 I snapped.

This pillar of strength,

The one

To look up to,

Has shattered.

Pieces crumble

With each

Snap.

I thought I could be

Terracotta,

Going through the

Flames of hell

And made my way

Out,

But I was

Bearing the weight

Of the world

On my shoulders,

Eroding away

At the strength 

I once had.

Too much tension

Broke me.

Or maybe reliable steel.

Bent,

The world says

Isn't broken,

But I'm never back

To my original state.

I'm not the role model

I thought I had

To be.

I'm not the role model

I thought

I was.

I'm sorry.

(May 1, 2021)