Dear Me: 2022

 Dear me.

You lived for graduation.

It's what kept

You going.

It wasn't what you thought

It would look like,

But you made it.

You completed

School number one,

Now you're about

To graduate

From school

Number two

In three

Months.

Dear me.

You heard repeatedly

"Fake it 'till you make it,"

But you always added on

"Just don't break."

But you broke.

But you got fixed up

And kept going

And never gave up

For good.

Dear me.

The struggling

Will not disappear,

But that doesn't mean

You have to.

Look around you.

You feel alone.

I know how

It feels so true,

But I promise you

There are people

To hold onto.

Plans ahead

You never thought

You would make it to.

Achievements made

That haven't even

Crossed your mind,

But you made it

And you did it

And you celebrated.

Dear me.

I know

You feel so low

Like you've hit rock bottom

And somehow

You keep falling,

Buried.

But look up.

The light seems

So far away

And it will not

Be easy

To get there,

But just keep pushing

Asd you will experience

Pure joy

For more than

Just a day.

Dear me.

This darkness

Isn't forever.

You don't believe 

You can be

Anything but

The worst things.

But I promise

The people around you

Telling you those are lies

Are telling the truth.

You are so much more

Than what your mind

Is telling you.

Dear me.

You lived

Fo the sake of others.

Now

You live

For the sake

Of helping others

And helping yourself.

You will struggle

But you will fight

And you will win.

Dear me.

Round two

Will come,

But you have

More tools

To arm yourself

Before you come

To hurting yourself

Dear me.

It hurts.

Feeling everything

And nothing

Is overwhelming.

Breathe.

One step

At a time

And you will make it.

I promise you

You'll be ok.

Dear me.

It's only been

Two years

Since you wrote

Your own will.

It was your comfort.

Yes,

You still have it.

Yes,

It is still a comfort.

Yes,

There will be days

You'll want to relapse,

But you won't.

The clock

Will keep ticking

And you

Are still clean.

Dear me.

Hold on

For a little longer.

You will keep

Getting stronger.

You will get

Knocked down

But you will stand

Back up.

Dear me.

Keep going.

Keep breathing.

You'll be ok.

(March 10, 2022)