Standards

I don't want to

Leave but I can no longer

Breathe. I'm

Suffocating.

Internalizing.

Hiding my

Crying by

Smiling. I'm just

Trying to make you happy.

But the fight reminded me of that

Night when nothing was

Right and still all my

Might can't stop my

Mind from remembering.

I feel

Useless when I'm

Clueless. Even if

You teach me, I don't want want to fail

You or fail me. My

Standards are too

High for me to go

By, but I still force myself to

Try even of it breaks me.

June 23, 2017