Hidin', Fakin', Cryin', Silent

I need a clean slate cause

I feel like I been fakin'

It's a mistak'n

And if I'd been graden myself

I'd get an F for faken

I try but no result reflects

The work I put in

The only result reflected

Are the failures

Cause I've been faken

Faken is taking a toll

My friends

My grades

My education.

They telling me to be happy

But I find joy in my work

But it's work hard so I

Sometimes dont--no--won't

Keep my health up to date

I put the work in

But I feel fake 'n

It reflects in my work

Reflects in my failures.

No stress in my life

No anxiety

No late nights cryin'

No fightn' with my mind

No bruises hidin'

But I feel paralyzed

Cause I've been lyin'

I once loved school.

Teachers

Friends

They're my family

But I've been strong

For so long

The mask is glued on

Forever hidin'

Forever fakin'

Forever cryin'

Forever silent.

February 16, 2018