Rules

It's not another anymore.

It's me against me

And I can't stop it

And I'm scared I'll

Go too far

But I am going nowhere

With these thoughts

In my head.

Demanding me to

Ignore the hunger

Deny food

After breakfast

Until dinner

Don't snack

Consume as few calories

As possible

They are the enemy

Food is the enemy

If you follow these rules

Then maybe you'll

Finally lose weight

Like you've been wanting to

For over two years.

Maybe you'll gain

Some control.

Maybe you can

Hide it enough

No one will

Call what you're doing

Stupid anymore

Because they don't understand

You don't have a say

That you're tired of fighting

And are struggling

To fight anyway

Without hurting yourself

In the process.

July 14, 2019