You Promised

You promised.

You said it on your wedding day.

For better or for worse.

Today is the "worse" part.

But you fight.

You get in each other's face.

He towers over her,

But I wait for something worse.

Mom,

He's working at Panera

Even though every

Bone in his body

Told him not to.

Dad,

Yes, she gets on all our nerves,

But she's your wife.

You promised.

Stay together.

I thought it was getting better.

He didn't read the book,

But participated.

She read the book,

But didn't participate.

You triggered me

Worse than I already was.

Him in her face.

Her tears trickling down.

The screaming at

One another.

I can't handle it.

It was like a flashback.

The TV already

Reopened the scar,

But you.

You widened the wound.

I'm wearing the necklace again.

The semicolon one.

I promised.

As long as I wear that,

I won't take my life.

I haven't needed it for so long.

But now I do.

I go to sleep over

At my friend's house.

Her family so kindly

Takes me in.

But I must return tomorrow.

I must return

To YOU.

I can't run.

I can't hide.

If I could just fly away.

Maybe fly to church.

That's my family.

I don't have to fear

That there will be a divorce

With them.

I wish I didn't fear one

Between you.

June 10, 2018